My endo has knocked me this month! I normally battle every month, but this month I am really battling with extreme fatigue and pain. All I want to do right now is cry. I am not sure what to do with myself. I am also not quite sure if my hormones are taking a dip too as a result of the premature ovarian failure. But I definately feel pretty useless and emotional.

Some of you may recall that I had a lap last year and the results were not good. You can read about that here.

I was suposed to go on some Lucrin and then have a Mirena inserted, but I didn’t do it…….I know that one of the reasons was financial. It was the end of the year and we had no more medical savings. The Lucrin is expensive and I simply don’t have R6000 lying around. But I supose I could go on it now because our medical savings have been topped up, but I’m still hesitant. I am worried that the Lucrin will turn me into a hormonal monster and to be honest I am dealing with enough at the moment. I don’t need to be pushed over the edge.

And so I am not sure what I should do….

I am not going back to the FS. I need to go and have my yearly smear so I reckon that I will book an appointment with a gynea.

There must be another option to the lucrin. Something natural? Something to balance my hormones….Urgh I feel crap!!